Keeping an eye on healing - Monday June 16th stop in TLC

Dr T saw us on Sunday and cleaned the wound / incision again.  It still hurt like hell and I felt weak - but I am feeling slowly like myself and the wound swelling is down.   We are lucky he is so attentive. 

Monday is a big day - June 16th, back to Dr. T and Christine cleans my wound.  She is ordering the nurse and it will take a couple days so in the meantime I will be visiting Dr. T and Christine. 

Ursula will be my visiting nurse and she will come on Tuesday - we all hope.  Mom is coming on July 18th for a few days to see how I am fairing.  I have a couple appointments with oncologists and she will come with me for the first interviews.

I stop by Dr Dar's office - after seeing Christine.  My first assessment with an Oncologist.  He is a general Oncologist and I am concerned that I have a specialist for colon cancer and Dr. Dar is very understanding.   He suggests Dr. Kozuch, who was with St. Lukes / Roosevelt and is now with Beth Israel.  His specialty is colon cancer and his residency was with MD Anderson.  My appointment with Dr. Kozuch is June 20th.  My appointment with Dr. Cohen with St. Lukes / Roosevelt team is June 19th and Dr. Ocean of NY Pres / Jay Monahan Center.   The calendar is filling and so is my head with questions.  The more I know the more I question.

I stop by TLC -The Licensing Company to fill my employer in on my health and what is going to happen next.  I am scared of this conversation.  Michael comes with me.  I am fragile from the healing of the infection and my weight is down, but I am determined to show that I able to keep moving ahead.  

Angela and I have a private conversation - what am I thinking about doing?  How will I heal and the time I may need.  I am diagnosed with Colon Caner and will need to start chemotherapy - 12 rounds, one every two weeks after healing from surgery.  I am currently interviewing oncologist and will most likely start treatment in July.   My hope is to work on my good weeks, or they say I may be able to work all the way through.  Angela takes this all is and tells me to stay in touch over the next couple weeks - to focus on my healing.  I let her know I am coming into the office next week for a couple days.

It has been a long day and I am feeling the pressure of so much - close my eyes and rest! Michael takes me home after I have talked with each of my co-workers...it is a small office and everyone is worried.  They all give me hugs and well wishes and I am on my way home....

Tired and scared

Jen